Holiday thoughts ★

Having my two months plus holiday, not to say I hate this holiday, I actually loved it but I was kind of sentimental. There's been feelings pented up in my heart that make me a little depressed and of course, utterly dull, just like my visual of life is only black and white without any trace of colour...

I remembered I was being so happy after the holidays were announced right after our exams, and all of us just feel relieved: "Holiday's here!" By that time, I couldn't imagine how delighted I was, dying for shopping and travels during the so so tormenting exams! Ugh, I swear I would never wish to go back to that kind of life during exam IF I HAD A CHOICE. Very luckily, I had longer holidays than many of my friends. "That's fun!" I thought.

So, this is how my holidays go on....

You know, behaving such a sedentary lifestyle at home without any exercises, whole-day facing laptop with eyes goggled throughout movies and Facebook,  addicted online, eating non-stop that I'm gaining some fats, last but not least, hanging out with friends. But, I'm totally enjoying this kind of life and I do treasure my holidays well.

Sometimes, there's a thought kept arising from my mind that make me fidgeting whole day long: "I'm regret that I chosen Pharmacy as my career." Yep, that shouldn't be appearing right now since I'm a third year but... I saw many friends did have a job now, already started earning money since 20++. I'm 21, still SPENDING TIME STUDYING just like what I did since I was borned. So, that've been more than a 10 years we spent time studying, how meaningless is that. Now, there're many rumors that Pharmacy is no longer a very popular career in Malaysia anymore these few years. Then, right now I am having kittens about this issue. THAT'S PATHETIC...

Actually, a successful person doesn't mean that he got a dozen of As in his result certificate or how much effort he put in studies to get an A. Owh, that's ridiculous! What's the purpose you studied so hard, to enter university and think so hard before making an option regarding the career we chose? The answer is simple, we want to have a proper job of our own and earn money. 

However, I didn't find that studying so hard like a whole-day 24 hours-seven will mean that we were successful. There're many successful people all around the world that they never managed to obtain an education or get dropped out of schools during their age. Amazingly, they are among one of the richest guy in the world. So, WHY ON EARTH DO WE NEED TO STUDY SO HARD? 

As everyone knew, BILL GATES is ranked as the world's richest person, he neither possessed a college degree nor attended universities. This had been the most awesome prove that studying whole day doesn't mean you are listed in the hall of fame. Hey guys, he just simply invented Microsoft software, and surprisingly he contributed to the whole world and he is famous right now! That's incredible right?

Admittedly, most of the people studied to get good results but I do mean that we as a student should've enjoy life too but not poring over books whole day. Sometimes I REALLY DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE LIKE TO CHOKED THEMSELVES WITH BOOKS. 

I was thinking: "Maybe I should've chose something simple and easier for me, instead of Pharmacy maybe I could prefer Business or other career, not necessarily to be professional." Professional doesn't make any sense to me anymore, it's more than a just a word. So if I'd chosen business I'd probably graduated by now and in conclusion, it is really much more easier!

That's too late to regret by now but I'm just expressing my feelings and thoughts. Anyway, I'm obliged to my parents for advising me not to choose medic by that time, which I'd insisted after I completed my SPM. Finally I got the comprehension of it. Now, I found it much more relieving studying Pharmacy instead of medic. However, it's still difficult. Lol...

There's no use now, complaining how hard it will be for my coming studies, but I'd assured myself I will not have any further studies anymore about my career. So now I will continue being a couch potato at home, enjoying such sloth that I would only have once a year. 

Most importantly, we should IMPROVE OUR COMMUNICATION SKILLS which might be very useful when we're in the midst of society. Even you possessed all A in your results, but with poor communication skills then you're doomed, everything screwed up. I acknowledged that MY COMMUNICATION SKILLS IS BEYOND WORSE AND I'M TRYING TO IMPROVE MYSELF.

I consent to what my mum told me: "Don't put too much stress in studies, most important is still your own health!" Yeay, mum I would like to say I love you that you always support me and never forced me to do anything I don't like. I can tell how much she loved me. She always collect recipes online about how to make healthy soup and food, then she cooked them for me since I'm at home during the tedious holidays. So, that's the result I gained weight during the holidays. =)

By the way, what I demand now is HAVE A SIMPLE JOB AND LIFE IN THE FUTURE without any stress. I JUST WANT AN ORDINARY LIFE. Y